When we found out that we were pregnant again in August 2019 after losing James in May of 2019, I worried about my body being able to do this all over again. My OB assured me that my body could handle it. She was more concerned for me emotionally than physically because of all of the stress that comes with growing another baby after experiencing one of the worst case scenarios just months before. Thankfully, this pregnancy has been everything that I hoped and prayed for. It has been my easiest pregnancy to date and I haven’t had any complications…. I don’t even have gestational diabetes like I did with Evy.
There is a part of me that worries that my struggle and complications will come with birth… but then again, I have no reason to think that would be the case. I have never experienced a normal pregnancy and so I think I’m just automatically accustomed to assuming that I need to be ready for bad news. I don’t want to live in fear and so I’m constantly asking God to help me trust Him throughout my final weeks carrying this little boy.
I say “little” boy but he’s been measuring in the 96 percentile for a while now…. he’s not little. Most people I say that to say “Oh well they are always off with those numbers” and I agree…. but then I remind them that Evy was 9lbs 10oz. Suddenly their “Oh he’s probably not big” comments subside and they just say “Good luck”. haha Thankfully, unless I show signs of pre-eclampsia, he shows signs of distress or he turns breech, I will be able to wait to go into labor on my own and I’m praying for that.
This entire journey has been such a gift to me. Every time that we leave our OB office with nothing but normal, good news, I’m amazed and so incredibly thankful. I may feel huge and tired and totally over being pregnant but I look at these beautiful images that my sweet friend Jill took at Big Spring Farm and I’m amazed that God has given us another baby….. who is healthy.
Enjoy some of my favorites and thank you Jill for capturing this season of our lives for the third time!! Ps. These were taken at 30 weeks! The latest maternity portraits I’ve ever taken. Lets just say, it’s a little more flattering to take them earlier, especially with your third! But I’m just so thankful to have them done and that Jill could do them!!!