Quiet and Peace

  • Quiet and Peace

Summer of 2008 I began second shooting for my good friend Jessie Smith.  My very first wedding was just supposed to be a favor, I was just helping her out. I loved photography and had been attracted to it since high school.  However, from that very first wedding, the thoughts started rolling.  Since June 2008 I began contemplating, discerning, worrying, dreaming and worrying some more.  I had been praying that the Lord would show me where my focus should be.  I was pulled toward art, I LOVED design and I had just gotten into photography. I have journal entries where I openly told the Lord that I felt lost, no direction.

I loved video editing, interior decorating, painting dishes….but still, no direction.  Was I just supposed to have a million hobbies and a career that I was just OK with?  Why did I feel like nothing really fit me but yet I was being pulled in so many directions at the same time? Very confusing. And being the worrier that I am, guess what I did to try to fit it…  I WORRIED.  It’s really a bad habit, especially for a girl who claims to know and trust the Lord.  Shouldn’t I be able to trust that He had greater things in store for me?  Isn’t He big enough for that?  The answer is YES, He is and He has shown me again and again how faithful He is.

That being said, Inspired Designs is not just a good idea that went well, or a pretty sweet dream, it’s an answered prayer. It’s the direction I had been praying for since the very beginning of college.  Now, a year and a 1/2 into the business, you would think that I would have stopped the worrying, right? I have a direction, I have a plan and I have new dreams. However, I still worry.  Building a business is all about constant innovation and continual growth.  You have to dream big and this means that your mind never stops running! Never. I fall asleep thinking about blog posts and wake up wanting to find new bridal portrait locations.  It’s bad.  The urge to try new things and expand is overwhelming some days. I feel like I’m being held back by school and that I’m constantly falling behind. Is this true? I have no idea, but I have decided to stop worrying, stop analyzing and stop wasting my time thinking about everything that is out of my control. It’s a shame that it has taken me this long to get to this point and to be honest, I know I will still fall into those habits again. But! I am announcing to all of you blog lovers that I am making a decision to stop the worrying! No more.

This next month or so is my Inspired Designs Vacation.  I have no huge plans (except WPPI! Vegas here we come!).  It’s great to actually have NO commitments on a Saturday and to stay home and watch movies with my fiance’ while it SNOWS again! It has been an amazing Saturday and I’m looking forward to having a few more like it.  This next month or so I am trying not to underestimate the value of quietness and peace.  There it is! I said it! Now you all can hold me to it.

Enjoy the rest of your weekend and stop to appreciate the little things!

8 Comments Personal
  1. michael reply

    awesome…first to comment!!!!

  2. Cati reply

    just wanted to say……. your blog post was an answer to MY prayer about thirty minutes ago. It spoke directly to my heart. Thank you. :)

  3. Kevin reply

    beautiful cardinal. Thanks for checking on mama. Wish I could be there tomorrow. Love you. Tell Dale hello.

  4. Melody reply

    Hey My bird…Yay!…He was in my neighborhood last weekend and I took lots of pictures of him.

    Katelyn….You have no idea how your story and the photo of this cardinal was God speaking to me through YOU. I love when He does that. I am so excited that He crossed our paths.

  5. marissa reply

    I was very surprised when I read your blog this morning. I have been in/ am in exactly the same place you are.
    I recently started a healthy living consultation company, in order to support myself and family after I graduated business school. I know the company was God breathed but there was still this nervousness and worry that was associated with it. I felt the exact same thing you did…I am a child of God and he had blessed me with this company and due to my worry, I felt like I was not trusting God with what he had given me. So one night I poured my heart out to God. I told him I was worried and didn’t want to be anymore. After that night, God slowly started leading my heart toward Wedding photography being the majority of my income and my other company being simply additional.
    Trust in God and his plan for you and he will make your paths clear. I will be sure to keep you in my prayers and send a few in your direction.

  6. Beverly reply

    May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit. Romans 15:12

  7. Jessica Beale reply

    It’s because you’re an “S”, KK…but we love you for it! I’m pretty sure your worrying days started way before college. “Jessie and Emy will never be friends again…!” Love you!!!!

  8. caroline reply

    hahaha jeka woman has a great comment :) aw we love you kk. its so cool to watch you grow and to witness God transforming you and writing your story. who knew you’d start a THRIVING business from your BEDROOM in the middle of NOWHERE (with dial up!). Katelyn – keep taking those crazy steps of faith…. and we thought we were going to be singer/songwriters in a band ha! go barefoot. hey that has a ring to it….i think itll be a life motto. hmmm. k. i love you

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